I AM THE CHILD
- By trek1071a
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Sat 17 May 2008 18:25
I though i would bring this back again as it helps me to remember my son and why i can so much
“I AM THE CHILD”
I AM THE CHILD WHO CANNOT TALK YOU OFTEN PITY ME; I SEE IT IN YOU EYES. YOU WONDER HOW MUCH I AM AWARE OF…I SEE THAT AS WELL I AM AWARE OF MUCH… WHETHER YOU ARE HAPPY OR SAD OR FEARFUL, PATIENT OR IMPATIENT. FULL OF LOVE AND DESIRE, OR IF YOU ARE JUST DONG YOUR DUTY BY ME. I MARVEL AT YOUR FRUSTRATION KNOWING MIME TO BE FAR GREATER. FOR I CANNOT EXPRESS MY NEEDS NOR MYSELF MY NEEDS AS YOU DO. YOU CANNOT CONCEIVE MY ISOLATION: IT IS SO COMPLETE AT TIMES, I DO NOT GIFT YOU WITH CLEVER CONVERSATION CUTE REMARKS TO BE LAUGHED EVER AND OVER AND REPEATED I DO OT GIVE YOU ANSWERS TO YOUR EVERYDAY QUESTIONS.RESPONSES OVER MY WELL BEING, SHARING MY NEEDS, OR COMMENTS ABOUT THE WORLD AROUND ME. I DO NOT GIVE REWARDS AS DEFINED BY THE WORLDS STANDARDS…GREAT STRIDES IN DEVELOPMENT THAT YOU CAN CREDIT YOURSELF. I DO NOT GIVE UNDERSTANDING, AS YOU KNOW IT. WHAT I GIVE YOU IS SO MUCH MORE VALUABLE…I GIVE YOU INSTEAD, OPPORTUNITIES TO DISCOVER THE DEPTH OF YOUR CHARACTER, NOT MINE, DEPTH OF YOU LOVE, YOUR COMMITMENT, YOUR PATIENCE AND ABILITIES THE OPPORTUNITIES TO FARTHER THAN YOU WOULD EVER GO ON YOU IMAGINED POSSIBLE. I DRIVE FARTHER THAN YOU WOULD EVER GO ON YOUR OWN WORKING HARDER SEEKING ANSWERS TO YOUR MANY QUESTIONS WITH NO ANSWER. I AM THE CHILD THAT CANNOT TALK
I AM THE CHILD WHO CANNOT WALK. THE WORLD SOMETIMES SEEMS TO PASS ME BY: YOU SEE THE LONGING IN MY EYES TO GET OUT OF THIS CHAIR, TO RUN AND PLAY, LIKE OTHER CHILDREN, THERE IS MUCH YOU TAKE FOR GRANTED I WANT THE TOYS ON THE SHELF, I NEED TO GO TO THE BATHROOM, OH I’VE DROPPED MY FORK AGAIN: I AM DEPENDENT ON YOU IN THESE WAYS, MY GIFT TO YOU IS TO MAKE YOU AWARE OF YOUR GREAT FORTUNE, YOUR HEALTHY BACK AND LEGS, YOUR ABILITY TO DO FOR YOURSELF SOMETIMES PEOPLE APPEAR NOT TO NOTICE ME…I ALWAYS NOTICE THEM I FEEL NOT SO MUCH THE ENVY AS DESIRE; DESIRE TO STAND UPRIGHT, TO PUT ONE FOOT IN FRONT OF THE OTHER, TO BE INDEPENDENT. I GIVE YOU AWARENESS,
I AM THE CHILD WHO CANNOT WALKI AM THE CHILD WHO IS MENTALLY IMPAIRED;
I DO NOT LEARN EARLY, IF YOU JUDGE ME MY THE WORLD’S MEASURING STICK, WHAT I DO KNOW IS INFINITE JOY IN THE SIMPLE THINGS. I AM NOT, BURDENED AS YOU ARE WITH STRIFE AND CONFLICTS OF A MORE COMPLICATED LIFF. MY GIFT TO YOU IS TO GRANT YOU THE FREEDOM TO ENJOY THINGS AS A CHILD DOES. TO TEACH YOU HOW MUCH YOUR ARMS AROUND ME MEAN. TO GIVE YOU LOVE. I GIVE YOU THE GIFT OF SIMPLICITY.
I AM THE CHILD WHO IS MENTALLY IMPAIRED.I AM THE DISABLED CHILD. I AM YOU TEACHER, IF YOU ALLOW ME. I WILL TEACH YOU WHAT IS REALLY IMPORTANT IN LIFF. I WILL GIVE YOU AND TEACH YOU UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. I PRESENT YOU WITH MY INNOCENT TRUST. MY DEPENDENCY UPON YOU. I TEACH YOU HOW VERY PRECIOUS THIS LIFF IS AND ABOUT NOT TAKING THINGS FOR GRANTED. I TEACH YOU ABOUT FORGETTING YOUR OWN NEEDS. DESIRES AND DREAMS. I TEACH YOU GIVING. MOST OF ALL I TEACH YOU LOVE AND FAITH
I AM THE DISABLED CHILD
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- By kerry.
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Re: I AM THE CHILD
Sat 17 May 2008 20:25They are the ones who cannot talk but tell us so much
They are the ones who cannot walk but can run rings around our hearts,
they are the ones who are mentally impaired but teach us to laugh at lifes silly things
and they are the disabled ones who show us how not to be disabled in our hearts.
- By EL
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Re: I AM THE CHILD
Sat 17 May 2008 21:51aw shucks you two
i saw this at CAMPHS. when im paiting at playgroup or painting at home please please mum leave me alone, in your adult eyes it may look a mess, but honestly mum i'm doing my best! don't ask me what it is dont say why that space, and let me put 3 or 4 eyes on the face, one day when i'm older, i'll conform just like you, but right now i'm enjoying the colours and goo, i paint cause i want to it makes me feel good, that green bits my garden, the red bits my blood, that bit in the corner, that bit that's all runny, is you- the most beautiful mummy, so thanks for the paper, the brushes and paint, i might make a mess, you know i'm no saint, so give me a pinny or put down the plastic, and i will paint you creatures fantastic, when i have finished, let me help clear away, because every new day i'm learning through play.
- By EL
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Re: I AM THE CHILD
Sat 17 May 2008 22:00My Adam put me firmly in my place today! it made me stop and think and remember just how special he is, in times of stress it's sometimes hard to remember that. I told him he moans an awfull lot for a 13 year old, his reply was " what do you expect for god's sake i'm autistic, of course i'm going to moan more that a normal kid, i didn't ask to be born autistic but i have to live with it not you, i'm really offended at what you just said and i'm more upset now, how could you say that to me, it's not easy going shopping i hate it actually that's why i moan". I couldn't believe my ears, i just sat on a bench outside asda and bawled my bloody eyes out, poor little sod eh!
- By kerry.
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Re: I AM THE CHILD
Sat 17 May 2008 22:11hahaha well hes certainly got no flies on him el.
my georgie makes me laugh- a few months back, he was really whinging and whining very loudly all day...
"I hate you, waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa F*k off b*ch.... waaaaaaaa i hate school, i hate playscheme i hate chicken i hate football waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa" and so on...
anyway this went on all day and in the end i shouted in front of him (which i know he hates but i was peed off with him too) "thats it, Ive had enough of your bloody whinging and whining, youre giving my bum an ed ache, will u just shut uuuuup"
and he stops in his tracks, sticks his tongue in the side of his mouth (in his really cute way) sniffs me, and sez "OOoooh mama you smell sooooooo good"its funny- i can never be angry with him. sometimes i get a bit over whelmed with his lil bro cos hes so full on but georgie is just so damned cute!
hes always so remorseful- like when hes kicking me hes apologising at the same time.
whack sorry mum thump im sorry pinch im sorry slap im sorry.........
- By EL
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Re: I AM THE CHILD
Sun 18 May 2008 17:29 sounds like a scene from Ed Edd and Eddy lol, i was totally enraged yesterday for no reason till i went to take my HRT this morning and saw i forgot to take yesterday's silly cow 
once i explained to Adam what i had done he forgave me 
till i told him i forgot to give him his Risperidone too 
no wonder he was mellow and spaced out last night his meds make him hyper i must be going mad
- By loopy
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Re: I AM THE CHILD
Sun 18 May 2008 19:20my charlotte got out of the shower the other day and said "you pain in the arse you are, f**k.!! i told her that it was a very rude word what she had said and she said "sorry"
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