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at a crossroads
- By loopy
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Sun 11 May 2008 14:00
im at a bit of a crossroads at the moment. Having recently finished a teaching assistant course i have just started the next level. I have only been on it a week and i am beginning to feel that i have made a huge mistake. I feel very depressed at the moment and dont seem to have much motivation. I have decided to give it a few more weeks and then see how i feel. It may be because i am studying at my daughters special school and i feel that i have been thrown in at the deep end because everybody there knows everyone else and i feel like a spare part. They never told me until i started that they didnt have a teacher and were interviewing for the post!! luckily someone has started and she is very nice. I dont know the children (who are all lovely) and i feel that caring for my own daughter who is disabled is quite enough. I havent had to pay for this course which is just aswell really.i really did get myself upset about everyhting the other day and made myself look a total pratt by bursting into tears in front of the deputy head. She was lovely though. i do work part time as well, and run the household. i know that at the end of the day it is my decision to do what i think is best but i would value what other people think too.
sorry for the big long moan
:) :)
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- By EL
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Re: at a crossroads
Sun 11 May 2008 17:44hiya, just like you said you should stick at it for a few more weeks before you throw the towel in. No matter how old a person is its always hard being the new person in what seems like a nice little happy family atmosphere. It takes 2 weeks to make or break a habit as they say so give yourself some credit and dont expect too much of yourself, afterall you do have an awful lot on your plate. So what if you broke down in front of the DH your human and so is she, i bet she didnt get to the age she is now without breaking down herself. Give yourself time to adjust kepp an open mind and if at the end of term your still not happy then chances are you never will be. Take care xx
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By coffee
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Re: at a crossroads
Mon 12 May 2008 13:02hi loopy as EL said give it a few more weeks it sounds like you need a rest are you taking 5mts to rest and getting enough sleep?
When we are in a class among those who we don't much know it can be the easy way out just to go but LOOPY ASK YOURSELF ( why should I end my course for others arn't I just as good as them?) come on loopy make a go of it and after a couple of weeks if you still feel the same quit but at least you can say to yourself I tryed also not all of us can make freinds straight away and some peope just are happy the way they are so loopy look on the bright side and dont give up just yet coffee
- By doug
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Re: at a crossroads
Mon 12 May 2008 15:38hi loopy whatever you do take ELS and coffees advice please dont give up yet youve put alot of hard work to get to this level and it would be a shame if you gave up now you need to get to know them and they need time to know you so please dont throw it away and think how would you feel afterwards if you dropped out after all the hard work you put in i think it would make you feel worse so stick in there girl you can do it
- By kerry.
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Re: at a crossroads
Mon 12 May 2008 19:23Lisa
as u know im at uni 2nd yr now and trust me i know EXACTLY where youre coming from...
how many times have i thought of throwing the towel in- and im not the only one- all of us have at some point and no one else has got our worries to cope with either.I have however made a conscious decision not to work within the area of disability after- I live breath and sleep it-and thats enough.
perhaps like you said caring for charlotte and then going into a very similar environment for work may be a bit stressful, especially as you feel like the new kid on the block!
however, just plod along and dont get too stressed with it all- it aint the end of the world and no one can kill ya if it aint for you so just go with the flow as they say.
give it a bit longer.
in reality youve probably got more knowledge and experience than the rest of em anyway!chin up girl
GIRL POWER!!!!!!!!
- By katew
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Re: at a crossroads
Wed 14 May 2008 11:40hi lisa
i completed my ta level 3 last year and loved every minute of it. I was lucky in the respect that i was already employed in a school and so was able to get all the evidence i needed easily. (ive got it all on oc if you want it emailed!!!!! i have now had to give up my job to care for my hubby who has ppms. Please try and give it another few weeks before you quit. have you tried to get a placement in another school? that may help you. Being a TA was such a brilliant job it is perfect for fitting around childrens schooling and the 13 weeks holiday was just a bonus.
Please message me if i can be of any help to you,
kindest wishes
kate
- By loopy
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Re: at a crossroads
Wed 14 May 2008 19:00i reached my descision today, and i have decided to put it on hold for a while. My heart is not in it at the moment and i am making myself ill over it. I think i have too much going on at home with caring for my daughter and son going off to uni in sept. I am quite happy with the level 2 qualification that i have and i am not going to discount doing a level 3 in the future but now is just not the right time for me.
- By loopy
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Re: at a crossroads
Wed 14 May 2008 19:59thanks kerry, you are right, no one aint gonna kill me for realising it aint the right time!! and yes, i sleep and breathe the disability thing.Since i have made the descision i feel TONS better. Ok, we probably need the extra money if i got a better job, but there are plenty level 2 teaching assistant jobs around. But my main priority at the moment is my kids especially charlotte. If her sleep patterns continue to be as erratic as they normally are then i wont be fit for sweet FA! I have got to go and clean this bloody computer screen, charlotte sneezed all up it this morning...yuk. snot everywhere
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