I had to take my husband to the doctors today, and to get there we have to take a 20 minute walk along a main road (on the footpath I hasten to add) with a crossing about half way up. My husband, in his blind panic/impatience to get from A to B set off at fair speed leaving me desperately trying to keep up with him. I could hear him muttering 'keep going, keep going' all the way. It was when we got to the crossing he was still muttering to keep going and he walked straight into the road as if it wasn't there. Luckily no harm done...this time!
My husband suffers from several conditions including epilepsy, he is registered sight impaired, although I do know that he has some sight. I also suspect that he is going deaf as he doesn't seem to hear me unless i'm facing him. But what I saw him do today was just as if he wasn't fully aware of his surroundings.
At times like this i'm at my wits end with him, he won't tell the doctor what is wrong so I can't get any help for him. I can have a private word with the doc, and they do listen to me now, but when they bring it up with hubs he gives the same old answer 'he's fine, nothing wrong' so even the doctors can't really do much for him as he can't be forced against his will.

I don't think he has any idea of the burden of responsibility he is forcing on me, although his faith in me to care for him and keep him safe is touching, I am not wonder woman and I don't have a magic wand. I'm so tired from the effort of having to be constantly aware of what he's doing and i feel like i'm banging my head against a brick wall with him. I don't get any help as he refuses to have anybody else involved, but right now i'm wondering how much longer i can keep this up.