by CrystalBlueWolf 02nd May 2012
Well if anyone had/has bothered to read my posts and blog entrys you'll see that things have been up and down as always. Today is going to one of those days i think. Had a very serious talk with hubby last night about some general stuff and it's left me feeling very lost and lonely. I realised that although i do have 'friends' they aren't friends at the same time. If that makes sense. I have people who i've known for years and sometimes talk to but it seems like they are getting on with their lives and i'm just stuck.
I'm also getting very broody which isn't good, and so is hubby. It doesn't help that his friend has just had a baby (well i say just he's about 6 months old now) but they keep bringing him round to ours and it makes me so sad. Because i would do anything for a child and it's just not happening.
I've also decided that i'm going to try and stay on this site until December then i'm going to leave, i tend to use this place more to moan and gripe than anything else, but it just makes me feel lonely. I see my post and no ones looked at it or if they have no one has said anything, and then every other post around it is at least 2-6 comments. It always makes me feel like my problems or what i have to say isn't good enough. I also don't get to use it as much as i'd like because i'm either not around or just don't come on it. But we'll see.
I've also got to get on the phone later and try and sort out a stupid HM rev problem from 2009 because my useless old uni never sent me a p45 when i finished working there so my tax is all messed up. And the HM rev keep badering me and it's just generally getting to me now.
Meh i dunno i'm just in a really bad mood right now, which probably isn't the best time to write a blog entry. I might write a better one later or something once i've calmed down